Seasons and Novels

As much as I love living in New England, the change of seasons has always been a little difficult. Like most people I have my favorites—spring, with the beginning of new life, and then summer with its heat and long days of sunlight. The transition from summer to fall is most difficult for me. It has always seemed more of an ending than the other seasons. So it feels appropriate that I have just completed my third novel, A Detour Home. It is a sequel to A Better Life, following Jenny and Margaret on their journey, and, to quote Robert Frost, “coming with surprise to an end that you foreknew only with some sort of emotion.”

Coming to the end of a work, a story, feels monumental, glorious and a little sad. Accompanying my characters through their many difficulties and dramas and ordeals, coming to a place where their story is complete, leaves me with both a sense of accomplishment and a sense of loss. I will miss being part of their lives, listening to them, feeling for them, hoping and fearing for them and cheering for them.

There is much to do now. I am working with a developmental editor and hopefully will find an agent who wants to take a chance on me and my work. The publishing and marketing of a novel has a life of its own, a time-consuming but worthwhile process. Endings and beginnings. Seasons and novels.

It’s Not an Outline

I have always been proud and mystified and grateful to be a writer, to have stories unfold and characters develop, simply (or not so simply) through the act of putting words on paper. Not planning, not knowing anything about what is going to happen, just writing. It’s magic.

As I work on my third novel, a sequel to A Better Life, I find myself looking ahead more and more at what may, could, or might happen, and I write into that, through it, picking up details along the way.. Because I know two of the characters so well, Jenny and Margaret, I do have a sense of how they will act or react (not that they don’t continue to surprise me) and ideas of what might happen. I write future scenes and conversations that come to me seemingly out of the blue and even wrote out a possible ending, all the while insisting it’s not an outline.

A lot of writers outline their stories before they write the first sentence. I don’t know enough (if anything) in the beginning to do such a thing, and I don’t have the patience for it. Once I have an idea or a character or an image, I am anxious to start writing. For me, following an outline would take away some of the magic, the joy of discovery. I may write down what the next chapter or end may bring, but it’s not an outline. It’s simply a possible or maybe even likely road to go down.

Is it an outline if I envision what may happen in the future and write it down? If I write out what could happen next, and after that, leading to this? I don’t think so, because I make sure to use those magical words: may and might and could. They don’t tie me down, don’t hold me to anything, but help get the story moving.

Time in Writing

The story starts. At first I focus on the one thing, the one thing happening to this one person, a seemingly small act or a monumental one. Either way, it is important. The story develops, something more happens, details show themselves. This first person is joined by another and another. More people want in, want their say, want to claim their part in the story.

At first it’s great. It’s exciting to meet these new people. At first they are pretty polite, take turns, stay in their own spaces, but that doesn’t last. Their spaces and places and conversations happen more frequently, closer together, then they have interactions with other people at the same time in a different place. Such important things are revealed. But it’s not that easy to put onto a piece of paper and integrate into the story, scenes that happen at the same time. I want to get it all into words and paragraphs and chapters that flow.

Looking out at a stream or river or runoff in a gutter flowing by, it seems effortless and easy.

On The Road Again

One of the most enjoyable activities in marketing my novels is going on the road visiting independent bookstores. The people who own and run these stores are always happy to support local writers like me, taking my books on consignment. Having my novels on the shelves in these beautiful bookstores is no less than a dream come true.

Besides Amazon, A Better Life and The Price of Secrets can be found at lala books in Lowell, MA; Andover Bookstore in Andover, MA; Gibson’s Bookstore in Concord, NH; Main Street Bookends in Warner, NH; Morgan Hill Bookstore in New London, NH; and Henniker Book Farm and Gifts in Henniker, NH. If you have an opportunity to visit any of these amazing bookstores, you are in for a treat.

Releasing my novels into the world is life-changing. Finishing such a long and involved project so close to my heart is not only incredibly exciting, but a bit traumatic. The people of my novels become part of my life, part of me, and it feels like I lose a little of myself when I let them go. For a couple of weeks, even with the excitement of publishing The Price of Secrets, I felt a little down. I had trouble focusing on my new novel, which is not a great feeling for a writer. Then my brother bought me a coloring book.

When I open to a new, pristine coloring page, there is a sense of newness, not unlike a blank page in a notebook. And there are decisions to make. Where to start? What color/tone to use? As with writing, I just begin. It doesn’t matter where I start, as long as I start. Start filling in the blank spaces and a picture gradually emerges. Not so different from writing. Creating a scene, a conversation, a character’s observations, coloring in a space, big or small, all add to the complete picture.

The more I think about losing part of myself by sending my work into the world, the more I realize it’s just a transition. It’s huge, but simply writing this post helps me know I am still here and I am whole. I will keep showing up to the page every day with faith and persistence. Keep getting words down, keep coloring in the story.

Endings

In life, endings can be messy. Endings can be complicated. When readers reach the end of a novel, however, they are not looking for messy.  Readers look for happy endings, or at least some sense of resolution for all the problems and travails our characters have gone through. But what if the end of a story is both joyful and sad? What if things are resolved but new challenges still lie ahead? Does this mean it’s messy?

I am struggling right now with the very last few paragraphs of The Price of Secrets, satisfied that what happens is true, but not quite satisfied with how I have written it. Yet.

I did a brief search online for “Writing Endings” and came up mostly with ways stories end, checklists of things endings should include. I wasn’t searching for a formula; I was searching for advice and inspiration, or maybe inspirational advice.

After looking through my writing books, I pulled out one of my favorites, Hooked by Les Edgerton. It’s a wonderful book about beginnings, advice on engaging the reader from the very first sentence. I picked up the book, checked the index and found “Endings.” When I turned to page 14, I saw I had underlined this when I first purchased the book, more than ten years ago:

          All good story endings and resolutions should involve both an element of a win and an element of a loss.

          Yes. Exactly.  My ending isn’t messy; it’s complicated. Like life. Now I just need to get my words as right and true as I can. I want to leave readers of The Price of Secrets still wanting to know how the characters are doing long after they finish the novel, but satisfied I have told their story.